Noooooo!

Sam has not been well for the last week. Really bad throat infection. And Lucy (at work) hasnt been well either. As healthy as I am...I could not fight the lergy both at home and at work. And yesterday...BAM! Fell sick. Unfortunately it is not a good time to fall sick- when is a good time anyway right?

Was supposed to fly down to Somerset early this morning for a meeting but the boss canceled it. Good! But looks like I cant get away from the one in Birmingham so tomorrow i have to get down there and stay overnight to make it to the meeting on Wednesday morning. Sigh.

I'm not bloody gonna roam freaking Birmingham at night for dinner so I guess I'll take some sushi with me from Boots. Served cold anyway so thats ok.

Damn it. Travelling when I'm sick always makes me feel worse. And my poor Sam will have to be alone at home feeling like crap too.

Sigh. Being an adult is so not fun.

                            

Halloween

The night before Halloween....

This is going to be a drag,....the trick-or-treaters are going to be coming by. I mean it is cute, but nowadays some of them don't even bother to dress up! And worse still, some dont want candy! They want money!!!!

Well sorry little punks, but from this house this year you are going to get chewy lollies and rainboy sweets and you're going to like it! Got it!?

Sam is going to be working tomorrow night so I'm going to be left alone to entertain the little monsters (see what i did there?! hah!). Oh well....

At the office, Ami got us each a small box of smarties, Lucy bought Vic and I huge muffins with bright orange icing (mine had a black spider ring on it!) and Jacqueline (the boss's wife) got us all some gingerbread and chocolate lollies. Aren't we a bunch of kids? Hee hee!

I think its nice! I think it's good that we enjoy small things like that. When you lose the ability to find fun in things so small, or lose the ability to look at things sometimes the way a child would, then we lose perspective. Then life becomes boring.

I'm glad we can still enjoy small things. I'm glad we can still behave like kids sometimes. I'm thankful we are so blessed that we all still have reasons to smile.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!

Wednesday Blues

Today....Im not happy. Today I feel lost and alone. Why...I dont really know. Today I am wondering if I am where I should be and if things are as they should be. Have I made any wrong decisions in the past. Was I supposed to do something else that I did not do? Did I decide something and took the rest of my life on a wrong course. What else should I have now that would make me happier?

All questions. Just questions. Dont even know if I am really looking for answers to any of them.

Ever felt like you are at a dead end? Like theres no point to alot of it anymore? Like this is as good as it gets although everyone else seems to think you already got it all?

I dont know.

I dont know I dont know I dont know. Do I need to?

PAIN IN THE BUTT!

Some people are so testy! Why do you make promisses and not keep them!? I'm not just talking personal issues here! Today I have a professional issue!

If I work with you, and we depend on each other to get the task done, if you dont pull your weight, its MY ass on the line! Especially if I have been given the authority and responsibility to make sure the few thousand pounds the company is paying you for this project is done and done right! But noooooo! "I'm not going to give you estimated time of completion if you keep quoting me on it Alene."

WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!???

One deadline after another. Takpe lah kalau ada delay! It happens. I get it. But not, "It will be with you by the end of today." and then sampai end of the day, "I'll get it to you by close of Thursday" and then datang Thursday, "After the weekend, you should be able to get it".

What I dont understand English?! You think because YOU are English that your "power of the language" is going to confuse me so I'm going to just accept the bull you give me and I'm going to let you ride my back so I can take the flack for you? I DONT THINK SO BUDDY!

Anytime, bring it on. This small asian chili will talk your English ass down.

Then wanna get pissed off at me because HE misunderstood plain requests on time frames. Whoa! Menyirap nye akuuuuuuu!

So annoying to try and be nice all the time. Understanding, professional, polite, kind...WASTED on some people especially when they are in the wrong. Suddenly defences come up. Ooooh I tell you. Even the nicest people can show their real ugly side when threatened.

RIGHT! Game on boy. I'm a small ciku, but test me...and we'll have some nasty fun. Yeah, that's right. I'm ready now! Wanna see my ugly side... all I have to say is, SWEEEEEET! Letthe games begin!

Birthday bash

Hello All!
Had a long weekend and today it feels like I need a break more then ever!
Hahahaha!

Id like to say THANK YOU to all of you lovely friends who took the time to text me and send me messages over my friendster and email to wish me happy birthday!

Haniz, you were the first person to wish me (after sam)! So thank you very much Nizz darling!

FIRA! YOU ARE THE BOMB! Fira actually took the day off so she could spend the day with me knowing that Sam had to be away during the day. We started at 2pm at mine after some lovely sushi
(that we made ourselves!), some malibu for her) and a bottle of wine for me.

Laughed talked about everything! By 5 e decided we wanted to make some cocktails so we walked in the rain to the shops and got stuff for it! Made some wicked ones if I do say so myself!

Vicki (from work) came over to drop off some pressies half way and hung out for a while. But as she was nursing a hangover from the night before herself, she left early.

Anyway Sam came home about 7pm and we carried on with another 3 bottles of wine! Was laughing at home so much sampai sakit perut so we decided we were having fun enough and didnt wanna
go out! Ended up drunk as a skunk and cutting Firas hair! Hahaha! Sam to the rescue, he cut it too and I must say
Fira, we did a FANTASTIC Job! Kan?

Sam made us some pizza from scratch and it was lovely except that I was soooo sleepy I started whinging about being sleepy and didnt eat it at all!
HAHAHAH! Fira enjoyed it though!

Yeahall in all it was a scream! Back at work today and I cant wait for the weekend again! First thing Fira thought of when we woke up was Damn it! I cut my hair! Hahaha! Quickly
followed by I want some nasi lemak

SO its a deal babe! Our next party, instead of sushi and pizza, well have nasi lemak and laksa!

1 year has passed

So this is a quick rundown of our mini break last last weekend!

We left home on Saturday morning at about 11am only because Sam was working the night before and he was so tired.

We dropped Gabriel off at the kennels, then we were on our way! While he was getting ready before we left, I made us some sandwiches to have on the journey.

In the car we put some cheesy 80’s music and were singing it all the way up! Hahahah! We are quite crazy.

Reached Edinburghat about 2.30 and then spent a WHOLE HOUR looking for the house!!! When we finally found it, it was lovely. Huge with 12 rooms. An old Georgian house about a few hundred years old or something. It was an old couple running it and they were lovely. The rooms had the traditional typical dressing table and drawers and all.

Anyway as soon as we washed up a bit then we went straight out again! The fringe festival had already started so there were loads to see all over the place. The whole places was filled with energy and everyone was busy and happy. It was great! On the street, there were random performers all over. Jugglers, dancers, bag-pipe players, comedians, clowns, people playing on dustbin drums….etc etc ETC! It was just all over!!!

Got hungry again soon and got a sandwich at a café with cheese ! I don’t eat lot of it (cheese) . I do eat light cream cheese or cottage cheese on occasion but am generally not a cheesy person. But on our break, I think I ate more cheese in that 4 days then I do in a whole year! No, really, I am serious!

Saturday night, we sat in an old traditional british pub and had finger food and some wine. All tired so we didn’t feel like a large meal. So we had stuff like Nachos and wedges.

Sunday! Our 1st anniversary! We woke up, gave each other a kiss and wished each other then faster got ready and went to church. When we got back, we said a prayer and lit our marriage candle. It’s a big fat candle that we had lit from the pastorial candle on our wedding day. And we are supposed to light it on every anniversary. Usually people choose white or cream candles. Ours is green!!! With Gold and cream ribbons tied around it.

After that, out again we went! Drove down to the coast and had a long leisurely walk. Hold hands, talk and laugh for a whole 2 hours we did that. We actually do that often. Believe it or not sometimes we just make sounds and not talk a lot but pretend we are having a conversation! Ha ha ha! Sounds weird right?  We are so weird lah I tell you!

Then we went back into town and had lunch at a place called Mussels Inn. So you can guess whats mainly on their menu! They sold mussels cooked in various styles by the pot! Either half or a 1 kilo pot. And there’s unlimited supply of fresh crusty bread to sweep up the gravy / sauce. So we ordered half kilo mussles morrocan style, and another half kilo cooked in wilted leek and cream. Also, as Sam and I love oysters (we usually have it raw with lemon), we ordered ½ dozen of them but different style. It was grilled with blue cheese and bacon. I thought it was too heavy although it tasted lovely and sam really loved it.

I bought him a black watch kilt (hes been wanting one for ages!) and he looks damn good in it, and he bought me a celtic ring from the castle and also a dress and a skirt. He has very good taste.

Then we walked to the river and watched the parade for 2 hours! It was crowded like mad and sam let me sit on his shoulders so I could see the parade. Too short lah, cannot see otherwise.

The people in the parade were throwing sweets and beads and stuff to the crowd and sam was trying really hard to catch them for me. Did manage to get a few! I got a set of green beads!

Oh (Sarah if you are reading this, I forgot to tell you this bit!!!)…an old Chinese woman walked up to me slowly with a very slight smile. She was looking at me as she was walking over so I stopped walking and was actually getting nervous. She handed me a hand folded lotus flower with a book mark tied to it. Something about the lessons we need to remember today. And it said “Tolerance, Truthfullness and Compassion.”. Then she walked away. And Sam and I just looked at it and thought, “Cool! An anniversary present! And a lesson to remember”. So that was quite awesome.

That night for our anniversary meal ( I wore the new skirt sam bought me) we decided to try something new so went to eat at a posh Mexican restaurant. Had this stuffed chilli dish that made smoke come out of our years but it was really nice tasting surprisingly! It was lovely!

Then next day after breakfast, we drove back down. On the way we stopped at Holy Island,  and Bamburgh. I love the castle there. Had some fish and chips on the beach, fed some birds then away home we went but not before we picked our baby Gabriel up first.

And that was our break. Phew! FUN and tiring and all in all, lovely.

So we been married a whole year now. It does not feel like it. Feels like a year away from home but not a year that I have been married. Sam is a wonderful man and a good husband. One day he will make a good father too. We can only pray that God grants us the ability to stay strong and keep our marriage fresh and always full of love.

1st Anniversary

Right!

Technically I am still supposed to be off from work but thought I’d save two days so I could have a long birthday weekend instead.

Went to

Edinburgh

over the weekend for our 1st anniversary and as the Edinburgh Festival is happening now….it was great! Stayed at an old Georgian style house and it was lovely. So grand, old and almost mystically whimsical!

Anyway…..my brain is a bit dead at the moment. Getting used to being at work again! Hah! Like I’ve been off for years! Its just that the sun is out and Im in here! Silly me.

Anyway yeah, for THAT reason…cant go into too much detail about the holiday right now. In short, it was wonderful. And Sam is wonderful.

I've Been Tagged by Le-Ann

BUT,

I cant work the links right!!! hahaha! Sorry Chika!!!!

TGIF

Its Friday! And I am so happy it is! It has been a tiring week and I am glad its over now. Nothing much to look foward to for the weekend since Sam will be going down to Newcastle for a course and I will be at home. Did plan to bake a storm but the weather for the weekend seems to be nice so I might pop down the sea front for the air show and catch the Red Arrows! We'll see.

Am done with my 13th Assignment! Its beeing passed up today and then I will be officially HALF way through. Man its like a never ending course! Plus after that I have to book lab time! Crap. I need to get me a white coat soon! (The clinical one! NOT the nuthouse one!)

Its been a crappy summer but I guess its payback for not having such a cruel winter. Our anniversary is coming up soon and we'll be going away for the weekend. Possibly York or maybe the lakes.

Well! It is 1.30pm.....and I have still tonnes to do! So! I'm outty for now! Have a great weekend you guys!

A Walk To Remember

Pray lyrics

Artist - A Walk to Remember soundtrack


Album - A Walk to Remember


Lyrics - Pray



There's a song that's inside
In my soul
It's the one that I try
To write over and over again
I will wake in the end
Feeling cold
But you sing to me
Over and over and over again

So I lay my head backdown
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you are my only hope

Sing to me the song
Of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing
And laughing again
When it feels like my dreams
Are so far
Sing to me of the plans
That you have over and over agin

So I lay my head backdown
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you are my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of our lives
I'm giving you love

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I know now you are my only hope